Saturday, 15 August 2009
Sunday, 9 August 2009
Wow so my day at the clinic is finally here and my head is all over the place. I'm constantly worried that I'm doing the right thing, that I will be able to hack life as a psuedo woman. Life is quite hard for me right now with out adding the trans issue in. If I'm totally honest with myself I do doubt that I am a transsexual, some times. Putting a skirt on did turn me on when I was younger and I'm not sure if this makes me technically a tranny? This doesn't feel like a fetish to me, but then who am I to know, I feel like such a prude in the trans world as it is anyway.
The biggest deal with today is the sense that I'm making a very dramatic step in the direction of womanhood and even though this is something I've dreamed of since a very young age it scares my socks off and I guess for very good reasons, if it didn't worry me at all there would be something wrong.