Family

Well my mum and dad now know and to be honest this has gone about as badly as it possible could have. My dad feels I'm lost to him and I'm really not sure what to say to him. As I had a long chat with him but have the feeling that nothing I said went in. The fact he phoned my mum even though he's promised to let me talk to her myself. So today I'm going to see my mum and talk this through with her. I'm not looking forward to this but I guess this has to be done. I've been going over this in my head for days and days and I still don't really know what will come from it and can't yet guess what she's going to say.

All I do know is that this is my worst nightmare, since I was little terrified that my mum would catch me in her clothes or makeup. I just have to face the music finally after all these years..

I will try to up date how this goes today!

Valentines again!

So here I am nearly 2 years into to exploring my gender identity; I'm feeling slightly blue today, it feels like I've come so far in all this but yet I'm still a long way away from becoming the woman I know I am. Though this will always be a bit the case, I can only ever be almost a woman. I just need to keep positive about it and keep on with the goal as I know it's worth it. I just feel in a bit of a weird limbo land right now. I'm still spending more time male than female and still single. This feels like a horrible trap that I can't see a way out of, the facial hair thing is a huge issue that once I'm rid of will help me live some thing near full time.

I've talked to and flirted with many men but none has either been brave enough or compatible with me! It feels like a long difficult path to find a boy friend. I can't see me finding one any time soon, while I'm in this limbo land. All my women friends seem to be finding love and I'm so pleased for them just hope I can find a little bit for me some time..

Sorry for the moan

Biba mini dress

After a mad night round at my friend Cassandra's mums house. Greta, her mum, decided I would look amazing in her original Biba dress from the 60's so I had to try it on.. Well I wasn't given much choice in the matter..

Anyway I thought it looked fab, I'll just have to find one like it for my next party night with the girls!